Do i really love this? or i just want to be 'cool?'

Growing up in a city has brought me to meet with different peoples with any kind of attitudes. Teenage years of mixing around with different peoples, make you much more matured in terms of many things. Sometimes, growing up in the city, has let u see the stuffs that teenagers aren't supposed to be exposed in that early ages.
The rebellious fire that burnt inside that make us want to go all against the rules, and how easy i was to lose my temper back then, well, I'm very thankful to god, from the 'ground' that i stood up right now, i can say that I'm not too far away drifting, but it does take me away a bit.


From time to time of me hanging out, there's one thing that i notice in our culture Malaysia; we accepted outside culture easily. Without any questions or judgments, as long as it look cool in our eyes, we took it, adapt it with our culture. however, that's the reason why we've got so many different cultures and genres in our music. Nevertheless, we got so many peoples that have lost their roots and grip.


Above statement is not the topic that i want to discuss out yet,i always get annoyed of poseurs/copycat! poseur is a person who affects some behaviour, style, attitude or other condition, often to impress or influence others but in facts, they are pretending to be something that they didn't have the knowledge ( something that he/she is not).
why?? because as far that i knew, by the time of me hanging out and experiences,
they think that what they do is right and cool/ up-to-date enough, plus they even dare to underrated other people whom they think are not at their 'class'. bulls***!.
I'm not considering I'm a very cool and high standard person, i prefer much silence acts of my own,and stay down low, away from all the main lights. I'm not saying that I'm a good person, neither a bad person, but i have my own 'ground' and fundamental grip that I'm still holding on tight! we must not forget that we still got our religion to be consider!
So,for those people out there, including my friends who think that they might be one of them , please
stop what you are doing, if you are not capable of doing it drastically, get it done gradually.
If you really think that that something is really cool and you have found your interest, make sure you really ask yourself " Do i really love this? or i just want to be 'cool?'" Solve that first! Then, u get to know it slowly.
Don't forget that we all have our own roots and fundamental basis.


mind to fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-

* i think I'm cool enough in this costumes

-YOU ARE A JOKE!