I'm just talking crap!

In life, there are so many harshness will be thrown at you, sometimes you will reach a point where you are just too tired of receiving all these difficulties. From all of these, i know there are more peoples out there who are even unlucky compared to me. I always being grateful for all the things that I've own. I know, I'm not a perfect person, I always look at myself as a person who lack of many things in the world. Sorry for those out there who I may hurt their feeling. Doesn't meant to do that.

World is a Big game! so please don't do anything stupid when difficulties fall right in front of you. Accept it wisely. 

I'm in a 'Pile of shit' when I'm writing this, and I hope everything will be just fine.

Here, I welcome 2011 with many hopes and wishes! Insyaallah. Amin. :)

Mind to fingertips,

AfqApnk

Wonderful November.

Here we are at the end of the year 2010.
Time keep on moving forward, and bring us together into whatever event that have been destiny to us by god.
Did you guys ever felt in life that sometimes you are unable to satisfied/pleased one person, or even unable to accomplished certain things? Resulting either one of us will be disappointed to each other. Well one thing that I always keep in mind. These are all have been fated by God's. For all of these planning, they are the best for us, up to us on how to digest them.
Straight to the point; I just came out with an idea of sharing with you guys material or anything that i thought special for that particular month. well, not every month i suppose. :p
Here we go! :
I wouldn't  have called it 'Wonderful November' if one of these things here doesn't appear in my life this month.:) :
~My Beloved Rabbit!
  - You suddenly came in my life and make everything to be rosy again.To make it short, I'm flipped! I  hope for the best! <3
~ My pair of Converse Chuck Taylor's.
  - This pair of shoes will surely take me to a lot of places, went through many ups and downs together.frankly speaking, a pair of Converse shoes is a must for everyone; its the most basic shoes that everyone should own. Come on guys, there's nothing to compare your money with the quality and awesome color design!
~My Music Playlist.
 -I can't even imagine what would happen in my life if music wasn't around. I'm too fond of music! That will explain why my playlist is very important. I don't listen to mainstream radio, thus, this is my radio. I always discover new sound of music, making me even falling in love with music! my playlist this November (cant get enough of these artistes);

• Stornoway- Zorbing. 
• Wolf Parade - Little golden age.
• Crystal castles - Empathy.
• Cold Cave - Youth and lust.
• A Fine Frenzy - Stood Up.

~ My Lappy!.

- My beloved lappy. This is where all the wonderful materials came from. This is the source. My studio.:)

Society

Oh, it's a mystery to me
We have a greed with which we have agreed
And you think you have to want more than you need
Until you have it all you won't be free


Society, you're a crazy breed
Hope you're not lonely without me...


When you want more than you have
You think you need...
And when you think more than you want
Your thoughts begin to bleed
I think I need to find a bigger place
Because when you have more than you think
You need more space


Society, you're a crazy breed
Hope you're not lonely without me...
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me...


There's those thinking, more-or-less, less is more
But if less is more, how you keeping score?
Means for every point you make, your level drops
Kinda like you're starting from the top
You can't do that...


Society, you're a crazy breed
Hope you're not lonely without me...
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me...


Society, have mercy on me
Hope you're not angry if I disagree...
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me...


written by: Jerry Hannan
Song: Eddie vedder 

P/s ;
Did you guys notice?? the world that we living is a corrupted world. Every where we go, we can see that we are living in a plastic world. Society, they are fast growing, chasing goals that have been created by human itself. Setting human mind to selected the available goals they created. 
Human is like a virus, they destroyed much things surrounded them; they are willing to do anything they could in order to achieve their goals and satisfied their needs.
Well, enough talking, i'm a normal people called human as well; we do mistakes. 
So, here, it's up to a person. Use your priceless gifts from God, use your wit to live a happy life.Your life, your own choice!


Here, is the recommended movie for you guys:

Into the wild (2007) by Sean Penn.

- this is a drama film based on a non fiction book of the same name that is written by Jon Krakauer, which mean that this is a true story. An inspiring story of Christopher McCandless (Emile Hirsch) adventures throughout his lifetime. Real stories coming from all around the world like this one really inspires and appreciate everything that I've got.
Movie rating : 4.5/ 5


Mind to fingertips,
Afq Apnk

Something Good Can Work

The end of semester three just relieved me somehow, and I've been left this 'space' for a very long time; since I don't have the time to spend here. This semester went well, taking me travelling into many ups and downs of life and that's how it should be. The lesson that I've learned are that; first, God always got a better plan for you, after the struggle that you have made, you will earn something. We just need to believe in that. Second, don't be afraid when u had done something wrong or made a mistake, it will make you to be a better person; knowing the mistakes that we have made, let us know how bad it will affect on us, thus, making us to judge ourself.

Well, here is the summary of semester three spend in Malacca:

Equation will explain it more further. 

Boredom+ Dumb acts + Nocturnal = Roof hangout, Lake swim.

Load of tasks+ Laziness+ Low budget = Lousy outcomes.

Times+ Friends true color = Drama. 

Times + mistakes = People change. ( make a change)

Times = Meeting new peoples! =B!

Mind to fingertips,

Falling,

-Afq Apnk-

Sky of Lendu
*what can you guys see??

For all the malay including me...

our fourth prime minister- Tun Dr. Mahathir.

Melayu mudah lupa

Melayu mudah lupa
Melayu mudah lupa
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya dipijak
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya retak
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya teriak
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya haprak
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya kelas dua
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya hina
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya sengketa
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya derita
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya kerdil
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya terpencil
Tiada daulat
Tiada maruah
Tiada bebas
Melayu mudah lupa
Melayu mudah lupa
Melayu mudah lupa
Sejarah bangsanya yang lena
Tanah lahirnya yang merekah berdarah
Ingatlah
Ingatlah
Ingatlah
Wahai bangsaku
Jangan mudah lupa lagi
Kerana perjuanganmu belum selesai.

( tun Dr. Mahathir bin Mohamad, 2001)

Do i really love this? or i just want to be 'cool?'

Growing up in a city has brought me to meet with different peoples with any kind of attitudes. Teenage years of mixing around with different peoples, make you much more matured in terms of many things. Sometimes, growing up in the city, has let u see the stuffs that teenagers aren't supposed to be exposed in that early ages.
The rebellious fire that burnt inside that make us want to go all against the rules, and how easy i was to lose my temper back then, well, I'm very thankful to god, from the 'ground' that i stood up right now, i can say that I'm not too far away drifting, but it does take me away a bit.


From time to time of me hanging out, there's one thing that i notice in our culture Malaysia; we accepted outside culture easily. Without any questions or judgments, as long as it look cool in our eyes, we took it, adapt it with our culture. however, that's the reason why we've got so many different cultures and genres in our music. Nevertheless, we got so many peoples that have lost their roots and grip.


Above statement is not the topic that i want to discuss out yet,i always get annoyed of poseurs/copycat! poseur is a person who affects some behaviour, style, attitude or other condition, often to impress or influence others but in facts, they are pretending to be something that they didn't have the knowledge ( something that he/she is not).
why?? because as far that i knew, by the time of me hanging out and experiences,
they think that what they do is right and cool/ up-to-date enough, plus they even dare to underrated other people whom they think are not at their 'class'. bulls***!.
I'm not considering I'm a very cool and high standard person, i prefer much silence acts of my own,and stay down low, away from all the main lights. I'm not saying that I'm a good person, neither a bad person, but i have my own 'ground' and fundamental grip that I'm still holding on tight! we must not forget that we still got our religion to be consider!
So,for those people out there, including my friends who think that they might be one of them , please
stop what you are doing, if you are not capable of doing it drastically, get it done gradually.
If you really think that that something is really cool and you have found your interest, make sure you really ask yourself " Do i really love this? or i just want to be 'cool?'" Solve that first! Then, u get to know it slowly.
Don't forget that we all have our own roots and fundamental basis.


mind to fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-

* i think I'm cool enough in this costumes

-YOU ARE A JOKE!

Celebration day!

Dear Ramadhan, now we are at the end of it, this past few weeks of ramadhan are full of challenges.
I spent most of my times during Ramadhan in my campus, well, i can count on my fingers how many times i manage to break my fasting with family. Despite all of the misery that i have to face in ramadhan, one thing that make me satisfied, I'm fasting full this year. haha.
after a few years since my last achievement like that!
Talking about raya, i can said that nothing much has been done for the celebration, as a matter of facts, I've done nothing to welcome my Raya!; cloths for raya are nowhere to be found! but hey, raya is about to celebrate on our  success of fasting in ramadhan, thankful for everything that have been given to us; that's the main point. :)

here i would like to wish to all of Muslim, especially for everyone who does know me,
Selamat Aidilfitri!
I'm seeking forgiveness for all the mistakes that I've done conscious or unconsciously.
have a blissful raya guys! take care.

heart-mind to fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-

sigh~

 I'm back to this 'space'!, i'm sorry due to my absence in a while, I've to deal with my annoying broadband, and so i get bored with it, busying myself with some other things.
Here we are! after few months of missing in action, i'm back! There are so many things to share and to talk about. Now, i'm in a new semester, moving another step forward, passing through times, bringing the changes all around me.
For this new semester, the seniors were right, this particular semester was horrible, assignmentshits are everywhere: they are all out of control!
Tracing back my period of when i'm 'missing in action', many things happened, pushing and taking us to move forward; moving to positive or negative, all up to individual.
well enough crap, here are my math of that 'period' til now:


campus + the crazyheads x boredom = dumb acts.
laziness + assignments + playtimes = last minute work = thumbs up!
absurd expenses + craving needs = money burned.
question + experience + question + experience =  another question (???)

mind to fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-

Drug is a Big NO...

Spending my time with a lot of hangout; that is what I've been doing and always does when it comes to semester break or long period of holidays. Try to find a job was never works for me, there's always something came across me, and as the time flies by, new semester is just around the corner to be embrace. Sigh, I assumed that maybe, no 'rezeki'? I can accept that.
By having plenty of times at home,watching movies are one of the activities that must be done,here i would like to share one of my recommended movie; Blow(2001). Movies that I labeled as high value are movies that will gives impact to people and make them to stop and think for a moment, something that will inspire someone. The factor here is, the messages in the movies.
Stars by one of my favorite actors, Johnny Depp,  Blow is a biopic film directed by Ted Demme (2001), story of American cocaine smuggler George Jung played by Johnny Depp. This is a true story of a real people. Stories like this just make me pause for a while and think. For me what makes this movie success is the storyline of how George Jung life is. I reckon that maybe some of you guys will sum up of this is one boring story, but watch it in a plot and the storyline point of view.
Starting from the childhood of George Jung until how everything come to a halt, the whole journey and process was dense with moral values. This story has opened my eyes to be very be careful on what you are going to stepped on next, know where you are going, time is very precious and we must play our roles given to us with full responsibility. In this movie we can see how easily we as a human can go blind by the materialistic world we are living. Human keep on doing mistakes, and so do i, well, therefore, we must be much aware of what we are doing. Don't try to bombard me with your critics, I'm just trying  to do my part.:)
Reminding each others are always will bring to a good ends.
For those who are haven't watch this film yet, I insist you guys to do so.
Movie rating : 4 / 5
 Mind to Fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-

Youth Festival 2010

Here we are, in month of June.
My fond of music is one of the few things that inspires me, and when it comes to music, i love it to be loud. Going to parties/concerts/ live performances are few of the sources to reach my needs of 'sweet' listening. Furthermore, being there at the event, will lessen the burdens in my head a bit while I can enjoying my self with all my friends. Another reason for me to attend this kind of event is my love to fashion as well; i can experiment with my outfit.
Last Sunday, dated 30th may 2010, I attended Youth Festival event 2010 at PWTC, Kuala Lumpur, this event were held for three days straight, starting from 28-30 May; I went there for one day only: Sunday.I never heard of this event before though, or I just missed it.
Thousands of youths can be seen there as i arrived by public transport sadly.ha ha. However, my reasons to come here is because of music, fashion, friends, filled my long bored period of time,Lap Sap, well, the goal is clear; to have some fun!
I managed to met couple of peoples involves in the scene.Clothing lines fashion label  Lah lah Land til Charcoal are all were there and their stuffs are much attracted me, if not because of my money I would've bought any of the sweater,bag or shoes. Other than that, talking about the concert, the finale, vibes from the crowds are very energetic. The crowds came from many different backgrounds and ages, sometimes it's kind of funny when we are actually can assume why they were there. From rempit, school kids to party goers to hipsters, there were all there. For me, it was kind of, a bit irritating, sharing the same space with them and dealing with their acts. After, following the scene for quite a period of times, it was way a different gap.
Put aside all the fuss, lap sap took over the stage around 9.30 pm, enough said, they  know how to make crowds go crazy; they injected energy to crowds with their electro pumping beats. Way to go guys! However, they spin for just about an hour, then, it's done. Well that's what you got for a free event like this I suppose.
Above all, this is one good event, to converge so many different peoples of different backgrounds and ages. I'm looking forward for the next Youth Festival to come though.
Mind to fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-

 we are lap sap- me and mr.lap sap (Blink)

The only drug.

May 2010 is coming to its end, my semester break so far was kind of flat and bored i  assumed. Same routines everyday, again and again, driving me lost and torture my life slowly! Luckily, accompanying me all this while and always does is music. I'm so in love with music. "Music is my hot hot sex", a line from a lyric of the band CSS just suits me and my situation here! When its coming to music, i think there will be not enough space for me to write here, and if i do so, all of you guys must be bored, certainly!

My fond to music does not including and referring to all of the genres, I'm not an all rounded listener, plus, i don't really listen to the mainstream music,I do listened, but not much. Sometimes when people talks about famous artists and their songs, i don't even know about them! How bad is that?ha ha..Of course there are reasons why i walked and past through all these mainstream stuffs, I walks my own path, different path. However, i didn't underestimate them, or want to argue bout it, for me, a true music lover don't judge on other genres, and they don't feel superior of what  they are listening. Sadly and annoying enough, i have had encountered few  peoples that is conversely from what I mentioned above, in my life,and i  just let them with their attitudes, let  it be. 
Back to my subject, my writing here is actually to tell and shares with you guys on how I manage to survive striving hardly enough through boredom. Revealing the secret!:
Music is my 'placebo' surviving this!. Here are my top ten songs of this month.( I listened to these songs repeating all over again this month.)

• Bedroom Avenue,by Goodnight Electric.
• Vanished, by Crystal Castles.
• Courtship Dating, by Crystal Castles.
• Amsterdam, by Peter Bjorn and John.
• Falling Down, by Oasis.
• The Sun Smells Too Loud, by Mogwai.
• Girls and Boys in School, by Neon Trees.
• Black Balloon, by The Kills.
• Growing Pains, by La Roux.
• Cath, by Death Cab for Cutie.

 Music has inspired and drug me.This is my drug. Well if anyone read this, and shares the same interests with me, we can exchange our listening materials.
Feel free to do so.:)
Mind to Fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-

Ciggies Love

Literally, I'm breathing toxic everyday, this is a love to death fairytale,"happily ever after..." Ha ha, well i know this kind of love will eventually taken its toll on me. I've heard someone once said, "Smoking effects on human is just the same if we consumed chicken excessively..." and i do believe that. Eating chicken or anything meaty will gives bad effects on you, and the same goes with smoking, in facts if anything goes over the limit or below the right requirement, will affects you, it must run smoothly with appropriate amount and the right proportions, within the right time. They must be controlled.
Starting just for fun and want to try how it feels, I finally, officially become a smoker, life in the campus has dragged me to this, well, how can i run? Everyone around me is a smoker, plus with the pressure compressing in, and letting myself  know how "best" is ciggies before; doesn't help! Ha ha..
Smoking ciggies the best way for me are:

• Enjoying it with coffee.
• When feelings/minds are intertwined.
• Cold weather or rainy day.
• With loud music.
• After eating a great meals for sure.

However, my smoking habit is still under controlled i supposed, just like i said before, I managed to set how many ciggies must I enjoyed in a day.:) One thing for sure, I've promised to my self, "I will not taking any damn drugs!"; I have seen how these things dragging people, and I will not be fooled by them!
Bottom of it, whoever want to mess with these, think thoroughly, and don't forget, everything has their own level of limitation.
Mind to fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-

Tick Tock....

Stepping forward to my second post, well, time move very fast around us, we don't even realize how sometimes the pace of time has gives many impacts in our lives. While chilling around wasting times, many opportunities are actually have been past over us just like that. I've just finished my second semester in Uitm Lendu, Melaka, and how fast is that?!..
Looking back at the previous semester, one event after another occurred, and some of them has put impacts in my live and my mind as well. Here i will list out my top ten events that happened last semester (January-April 2010), and believe me, these are somehow still fresh in my mind and some of them have made me changed my perspectives towards on certain things.
The top ten list of January-April 2010(without order):

• The end of a relationship.(we are still good.)
• Friends showing their true colour.(lot of stories.)
  
• Sleeping disorder getting worse.
• New friends.
• The bond among friends are strengthened .
• Too much laid back.
• Discovery of new bands.(always does)
• Less involved in the 'scene'.
• Money going down.
• Bundle stuffs.

There you go! my list of last semester. There are many more that occurred in that period of time, but they have made it in my list. Later...
Mind to Fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-

Front Door...

Bismillah...:D

Welcome to the Mute Bubble Space, afq apnk blog; my blog. For a moment, i never expect that i will be a blogger one day. As i can recalled, there's this one time before where i found everyone around me are blogging; at that moment i, i assumed that the time is not right for me to blogging yet and it is quite a heavy stuff for me to play with. Well, times rapid movement changes everything around them, and so do i.:)
- i just found the right time to start i guess....
Blog in my eyes is the place where i can share stories, ideas, knowledge, review on things and many more.Here in the Mute Bubble Space, i will basically talk about my past experiences, my interests, perspectives on things , summary of things and shares different many other topics. Blog is a substitution of diary as well, it stores memories, and here will lies my memories.
For anyone who will read the contents of the Mute Bubble Space, welcome and thank you for sacrificing your time here. I hope your visits here will gives benefits, and if not, sorry!! heh..;)

Mind to Fingertips,
-Afq Apnk-